STOP!

Thank you for being concern but at times I just felt that it's better if you don't ask.

I know you might say that I might be faking realism of my own life but this is how I live with it (for now, this is it).

This is what lingers on mind especially when I'm alone or when people start directing same question to me..

"I wish I can hear your voice over the phone again..

 I wish life can be more enjoyable with lotsa laughter just like how it used to be (even though most of the time,    the topics were just crap!) but indeed I am a crappa-doodle person, I crap alot if you know me well..

 I wish I can watch the sunset and see how the night sky change into a beautiful starry moonlight night with a smile over my face (like I used to)..

 I wish I can be like them so lovely and dovey..

 I wish I could get to listen to songs dedicated for me again..

 I wish I could have a good yet memorable long bus or train ride once more..

 I wish life with you could be just as simple but filled with happiness again.."

And my thoughts flows on and on and on..

Now what's the point of letting tears fall down because of all these?

Exactly. That's the reason why I am holding back my tears now.

If only you could decipher what my hearts is saying (silently), each time.

And my girlfriend said, "Do you want to just watch all these pass by over the years just like that?"

Of course I don't want.

I'm sure you all know how I'm like.

I'm very dedicated when it comes to loving one.

Thanks girlfriend for being there.

I wish time will pause and let me set it to proper timing for me to start a new beginning all over again.

(: